Ignore my last two posts!

Fuck this, fuck that, fuck everything, fuck you.
Ignore my last two posts please everyone, no point in reading them, they're stupid and pathetic and useless. I just don't want to delete them.
So yeah I am obviously the stupidest person ever, the most naive for thinking you could change and the most gullible for believing everything you said and did.
Whatever.

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If you read what I just wrote, you're probably thinking that I'm stupid and so many other things. I'm just confused and want to talk to you properly for once. I don't know, just ignore it if you thought it was a bad thing to do, act like you never even saw it. I hate being so awkward.

Help me

Because I don't really know what I'm feeling.
Because what happened felt so wrong but so right.
Because I need to talk to you.
Because your hugs make a difference.
Because some things happen for a reason.
Because it seems like you're avoiding me.
Because no matter what I still want you as a friend.
Because sometimes talking to you makes me feel better.
Because maybe I'm just stupid.
Because maybe you didn't mean what you said.
Because maybe you just think you made a huge mistake.
Because what am I supposed to do, when I'm completely lost?