Am I not important at all?

Hi, I'm here you know, I do exist. Why do I have to be the one that always talks first? If I didn't none of you would even give me the time of day. I'd do anything for you guys, the best friends I've ever had but, I never seem important enough.
What do I have to do? I would be nice to seem wanted for once...

Keep your head up, keep your heart strong

Hey world, it's me again. Yep let me just bore you with some of my rubbish, I don't really know what to write about at the moment. I'm in the weird kinda place where things are just pretty fucked up. I can get really hyper and happy and in a second I just hit rock bottom. IT SUCKS!

People don't tend to help much either, some do and I love them for it, others make me want to scream. I deal with it all quite well I think. I haven't killed anyone yet, put it that way.

I don't sleep very well anymore so I'm always tired and on edge. Don't piss me off, you'll regret it believe me.

I'm going to live by this lyric, it's from a Ben Howard song and it's just brilliant:

"Keep you head up, keep your heart strong".

Wise words, wise words indeed.

It's not my fault I'm not pretty or skinny, clever or funny, confident or special. No self esteem or hand eye coordination. I don't really like people and they don't like me. I've always had to really scream for attention, but never been able to enjoy it. I used to be happy all the time, never needed a reason. Somedays I struggle to keep my head above water. I get scared of the dark a lot more now, it makes me feel pathetic and weak. And I still get so nervous around people, few people really know me.
All I want is to love myself just the way I am.